Wednesday, April 28, 2010
In other news, I have overworked my poor sewing machine. Thank goodness for my Mama, she put it in the shop for me today to be repaired. It may be a few weeks before it is ready for pick up. I am so anxious, I had so many projects to finish up. My mama was going to loan me one of her machines today, but I was feeling too lazy to learn to wind a bobbin and thread a machine different than the one I am accustomed to. I think I am changing my mind, I can't live without a sewing machine.... "oh mama... I think I am coming back down to borrow your machine!" Well, I am off to bed... very very sleepy. Goodnight y'all!
Friday, April 23, 2010
Hello all! I thought I would check in and give a little update. Little Ollie will be joining our family very soon! I have been scheduled to have my c-section May 12th. It still is hard to believe that there will be another little baby, even with the morning sickness, watermelon belly, heartburn, and running to the potty every 5 minutes, suddenly I feel this sense of surprise and shock that I am indeed about to have a BABY. I have gone into a mad sewing frenzy making things as often as I have the chance. Trying to finish up all those last minute projects. Okay, I guess I am always in a sewing frenzy, making things for my little loves. The week before Ollie is born, my mama is throwing me a special mommyhood- baby luncheon. I decided to scratch the plan of a traditional baby shower, and have a small intimate lunch with my mama, mom, and two closest girlfriends instead. I am quite pleased that we are celebrating in this way, with the people in my life that truly love and care about me. We are going to be dining at Marie Calendars... I can't wait to order some deep fried green beans! ( A very tasty appetizer they have there!) Then comes Mother's Day, and then Ollie arrives! May will be a good month!
Well, since my two little rowdies are in bed, I should work on my sewing projects! Just wanted to stop in and say Hi! I do have plans on updating this little old blog more often, and sharing recipes and sewing projects and this and that, it just seems I have been in a rut, and I am slowly working myself out of it. Have a wonderful weekend y'all!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Lately I have found myself stuck in a rut. Today was a particularly hard day, unpaid bills are piling up, we are running out of necessities, and I really had thought that my husband would have found work by the time Ollie gets here, but still no work, and my due date is just around the corner. I am discouraged, and I have been for a long time. I am so discouraged and tired from worry and stress, that I don't even do the things I usually enjoy doing. I used to do so much more baking and sewing, and have more outdoorsy adventures with my littles. Now I am always in such a down in the dumps frumpy state, that it is a miracle just getting through the day. I still bake cookies and sew for my kids, and we do fun stuff outside, but it is different... I have lost my cheerfulness and optimism and spunk. My life is not what I want it to be, I have so many dreams that may never be realized, the 12 kids I dream of having, may all just be a fantasy, I can't even afford to diaper or clothe the ones I have. There are far too many things about my life that I can't control or change, but I need to focus on what I can, I need to get my optimism and spunk back. I need to be all sunshine and chocolate chip cookies, no matter how crappy the reality is. My babies need that, I need that. So bloggy friends.... I need some words of encouragement.... I need a kick in the butt to jumpstart me to be that spunky sunshiny gal that I used to be. I need some oomph and fire under my feet to smile and make the best of things. I guess I need some pep talks and a boost to help me do the impossible in an impossible situation. All though I know nothing will be different tomorrow, the bills and stress and worry will be right here waiting for me tomorrow morning when I wake up, I need to make my day different. So I am going to do my best... tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow I am taking my boys out with a friend to a strawberry patch and then to the beach. I am going with a realistic expectation of the day, it will not be the peaceful day that I see in pictures on other people's blogs. My rowdy boys will run rampant through the rows of strawberries, I will yell and waddle after them, and they will not listen. They will eat more strawberries than they put in their bucket, and will most likely make a very large mess and fight me wildly when it is time to get in the car. There will be sand throwing and fighting and naughty behavior at the beach. I will waddle after them and do my best to discipline them, but will not be successful. But tomorrow, I will remain CALM. Tomorrow I will work hard to get some of my sunshine back, and no matter how unruly my boys are, we will make a happy memory tomorrow. I am fighting to get my sunshine back... tomorrow is a new day.....
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
I hope everyone had a wonderful Easter!